Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Another new chapter... what else is new?

I feel like so many of my blog posts have been about new seasons.
Life is ever changing and these child rearing years have been rough on me at times. Well most of the time. But. With suffering, hurt, pain, sacrifice, and discomfort comes beauty and a greater knowledge of God's love for me.
This past year and a half I have learned more than EVER that this is just a fallen world that we live in. Life is never going to be perfect. Not when we make more money, or when the house renovations get finished, not when the kids are all in school (OMG THIS WILL BE ME TOMORROW THOUGH) and certainly not when we get our lives together. Life will always be messy. Always. And Jesus is with me in it. My rest, my comfort, my hope, my identity, my future... is in Him. He is the same yesterday, today and always (Hebrews 13:8 thank you Uncle Norm for this constant reminder through out my whole life.) So when all that I need is found in Him, I will not be disappointed.
Then it lessens the load on my husband, my kids, my friends, and all whom I love.
K. Needed to get that out. Mostly as a reminder to myself.

So, Hi. It's been a long long while. Like I said, it's been rough for a while, and now I feel like I am coming up for breath with more strength, maturity, beauty and grace. And not just because all my babes will be in school, although that helps.

So what do I do now?  Maybe I will start to plan dinners better, maybe I will have a clean house and stay caught up with laundry. Maybe I will blog more or create things again. Maybe I will find a part time job... I'm not quite sure yet. I'm not in a super big rush yet.

One thing that I am SO EXCITED about and that I prayed and prayed for: I got a camera.
It's a nice one. I don't really know how to use it very well yet, but I'm so excited. I love taking pictures of people and I have been so inspired by photos from [Humans of New York] photographer Brandon Stanton and the mysterious Vivian Maier. I love how they capture people's personalities and emotions. Their pictures bring me to tears.

Remember back when I did a series of blog posts about mamas a few years back? I love people. I love their stories and I love taking their pictures. So. Who knows where this will take me. For now I get to have a little hobby and I'll see where it takes me.
Here are a few pics I've taken:

Maybe another thing I should look into is how to have a better blog set up. Blogger is all I know and I feel like it's looking a little rough. Hm... maybe it's time to learn all that jazz and start up a new one.

K well thanks for checking in. Hopefully I'll be back soon.