Where I'm at these days

I have started a hand full of blog posts in the last month, but haven't finished them. I either lose interest or feel like it's all been heard before. I don't know, I have been in sort of a rut for the last 2 1/2 years month especially, and I have just needed a lot of time to process. This mother of three boys stuff was really dragging me down. It's been really hard to be joyful in the last couple of years, even though so many great things have happened!! We've been through a lot, especially since Dad died 2 1/2 years ago. He would've been 60 at the end this month.

So, with all that to say, I am doing a 30 day makeover on myself. I started with the intention of just doing the Whole30 plan, but have decided to make it in to much more. The Whole30 plan is basically the Paleo diet. There is a book called It Starts with Food by Dallas and Melissa Hartwig that leads and guides you through. It's like pushing the "reset" button on your body. I am eating meat, vegetables, some fruit, and nuts/seeds. After 30 days, you re-evaluate how the other foods affect your body, and you make wise food choices from there. So this won't be my diet forever, just until I can see how things like sugar, gluten and dairy are affecting me. 

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I have also committed to 3-4 days of Zumba at this great studio in Roseville, not far from my house. Can I just say that I LOVE ZUMBA. Seriously. The days I know I am going to get to go, I am happy all day in anticipation. If you have been bored working out, or want to try something new. Get with the Zumba. I can say that it has changed my life and I am so glad that my LP introduced me. I love it because the women that are in my classes are of all shapes and sizes, age, ethnicity, etc. I don't feel judged or like I am being watched. And I'm learning to dance! The moves are really hard sometimes, especially as I am getting to know the steps. Sometimes when I feel stupid or like I can't do it, I just pretend I am on P. Diddy's Making the Band. Danity Kane, here I come.... (am I the only one who secretly sorta really loved this song/video so many years ago? yeah I am?... k just kidding then...)

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I feel like I am taking time to renew my mind/body/spirit, and my joy is being restored in the process. God's totally in this with me. Otherwise I would not be able to have the energy to get through an hour long zumba class at the end of a tiresome day with toddlers. I am asking God to renew my mind towards food and eating. It's work, but it's working. I have suffered from body issues and low self esteem for a long time. I want freedom from that. 

I want to feel happy and grateful. Not grouchy and depressed. I want to have a strong and healthy body, not a body that I am embarrassed by with no energy. I want my relationship with God to be strong and steady, I want to be in His will instead of making decisions on my own and doubting Him when things don't work out. 

SO. Here I go. I am a week in, and I feel pretty great so far. My husband has been so encouraging. My friends have been too. I love that I have my Zumba buddies (LP, Mel and Lia). I appreciate and cherish my Whole30 mate Aly. Here's to a better Sierra! 

Now excuse me as I go kill my husband for shooting me in the ear with a Nerf gun just now. He should know better than to annoy his wife who hasn't had coffee or ice cream in a week.... deep breath... happy and grateful... not grouchy......

CHEERS Y'ALL. I'll try to get back to blogging more. Thanks for reading!